learn to look with heart...

for the past four year of my college journey,,, i've been falling for someone for about.... three times...
yes,,, three different person with their own pluses and minuses... 
some said that i choose to like and love them because their personality,, but... wait...


when i think about it carefully.... i fell to them most of because their looks or how they treated me in the beginning we met..
i never really looked into their heart or what they really mean... 
believe it or not,,, for the past four year, i like someone just because what they look in the outside!!!!!!
what a mess... 
and i just realise that...
what a pity..... =( =( 


the other reason why my life looks like "an epic mess" is because i just accept people from the beginning...
i didn't look who they really are,,, since i don't have many friends in senior high,, 
i promised my self to accept people without knowing who they really are... i just think they all good and nice...
then... look what happen now....
i'm disappointed... my heart hurts... and i don't know if i can trust people like i used to be...




and now... since my relationship and friendship section didn't end up well.. (i'm still a single lady,, and a person whom i believe so much betrayed me...)
i start to learn something...
something that i must learn from the beginning of my journey...




now... i start to learn, to look with my heart,, not just with my eyes... 
yup... i think it's the best way to know people well,, better than i used to be...




so,, in my new book of life... in a new chapter of my life,,, i will practice that...
i will look people with my eyes and heart...
i'll be different than the old me...




i start to look with my heart...
yes... using the most fragile and most believable thing that i have... 
my own heart,,,