Am I too addict to coffee??

Some say my addict to coffee is like a sickness.. Maybe they right,, cause coffee always accompany me everytime, especially when I feel sad or maybe when I feel I want to drink it. Sometimes, it can be once a day,, but when my day is bad I do twice.
I know it's not good for my health but,, in average,  I just drink one glass a day sometimes two days. Sometimes, I drink.. But when I forgot or I'm too busy with my activities,, I didn't drink it even for a sip.. And I'm too lazy to make it at night. Hahahaha..
but,,, i have to admitt... yesterday,, i drink four glass of them... two lattes and two cappus to be exact... and i just stay awake until 3am and woke up five hours later..... hmmmmmm.....










Then...
It's not as bad as you think, right??
I still manage to drink water everyday,, and sometimes I change coffee with tea..
Not bad, huh...









So, I don't know if I'm too addict or not.. Only you can tell, mates..

sickness??!!!

Mates,, kamis tgl 15 kmarin adalah hari yg spesial buat gw. Entah knapa ya, begitu gw nyoba u/ menggendong keponakan gw yg unyuuu banget itu.. Gw ngerasa seneng bgt.. Walaupun gw lagi ga enak badan, gw rela ke sana, ngerayain ultah sepupu gw. Terus end up ngemong si kecil. Hahahaha.. Jadinya seharian gw main - main sama keponakan gw itu.. At a glance, gw ngebayangin gmana nyokap gw dulu ngerawat gw. Pasti susah dan ngerepotin deh.. Hehehehe..


Well.. Sedih jg sih pas sore - sore ujan, gw harus balik ke rumah. Tapi mumpung orang - orang kantor ngira jalan bakalan macet karna ujan. Alhasil perjalanan pulang lancar bgt. Tapi yaaa gtu.. Di perjalanan gw ngerasa pusing, mual. Tapi gw ga bilang siapa2. Gw simpen sendiri aja sambil twitteran. (Bego ya??)


Daannn.. Pas sampe di rumah.. Langsung tepar lah gw. Badan lemes, panas.. Tapi gw tetep bangun, masak buat dinner (meskipun hasilnya kurang bumbu.. So sorry.. ) dan nonton acara ultahnya TransCorp karna salah satu temen baik gw jd dancer di acara itu.


Yaaaaa.. Akhirnya gw pantengin tv deh walaupun mata udah sepet karna kurang tidur dan badan juga udah panas-dingin..
Akhirnya setelah bela - belain nonton performance nya agnes yang personally,, I'm not a fan (sorry, fresnel) dan trashy boyband SM*SH, then inul.. Akhirnyaaaaaaaaa niiihhh.. Si kajol tampil juga. Pas bgt di deket Kristina yang udh operasi muka itu (mukanya aneh bgt sih.. Mungkin karna abis foto sama si sikat WC, Diego kali yaaa..)
Bahagia tiada tara, penantian gw usai.. Pas bgt kameramen menyorot mukanya kajol yang India2-Arab itu.. Aaaaaahhh.. Senang..


Setelah itu gw masih bisa bertahan sampe lagunya vidi aldiano, karna nyokap insist mau nonton.. Yaaaa.. Tapi akhirnya, sakit ini udah ga bisa ditolerir lagi.. Tidurlah saya dengan ngucapin good afternoon.. Hahahahahahahahahaha.. (Different time zone, mates) jadi yaaaa.. Pasti rada bego dikit lah keliatannya..



Daaannn.. Saya pun tidur selama 9 jam + 4 jam (dipotong solat subuh dan mainan BB)
Tapi badan ini tetap lemes se lemes-lemesnya.. Pake panas jg lagiii.. Yaaaa.. Udahlah.. Setelah three sips of ice cappu, I feel a little bit better kok.. Hehehehe
Ternyata yang membuat gw sembuh bukan dia, tapi cappuccino.. Padahal di status whatsApp gw udah "pengakuan dosa" lhoo kalo kangen..
Hahahahahahaha..
♥ ♥ ♥ to cappu.. ^__^

what I did for the past four or three days...

kalo kalian tanya "apa aja sih yg dilakukan sama pengangguran galau yang satu ini tiap hari??" jawabannya adalah "ngeblog, ngetwit, bbm-an, nonton tv sampe bego, main game di lappy, makan, masak, tidur, gangguin ade sama nyokap, dan nyampah" 


tapiiiiii kalian pasti bakal amazed sama apa yang gw lakukan tiga atau empat hari belakangan. 
GW APPLY JOB!!!!! 
yes... finally, abis nyampah ga berguna selama dua bulan, gw mutusin untuk apply job di AusAID karna gajinya yg menurut gw bikin ngiler (40 jt +++++ per bulannya...... *wink*) 




yaaaaaaa... meskipun gw emang sebenernya ada kerjaan sih (proyek RSUD Bengkulu) tapi tetep aja, berasa nganggur karna kerja nya dari rumah, telvon dan lappy beserta BB dan high speed kadang lemot internet menjadi sahabat tiap hari. hahahahahahahaha.....


at least I try to do the best sebelum gw diseret ke MM UI atau MM Prasmul lah... (padahal maunya di Aussie, hiks). siapa tau kerja di AusAID jadi batu loncatan gw untuk bisa ke negeri kanguru itu atau negara moyang nya (UK) supaya gw bisa mengejar mimpi jadi orang sukses di dunia perkulineran yang banyaaaaakkk banget saingannya itu. hehehe... 




ga ada salahnya kan untuk menggila dengan tujuan dan impian selagi bisa... lebih seru lhoo daripada meratap karna belum dipanggil sama perusahaan padahal udah apply kemana - mana (ups,, nanti ada yg kesinggung.. no offense, mate. ^_^) atau nunggu di lamar tapi ga punya calon sampe desperate pingin cari pacar karna kekurangan kasih sayang (apa deh???!!!) hahahahahaha... 


no offense banget yaaaa... saya hanya menunjukkan realita gila yg dialami oleh teman - teman semua. kenyataan itu, booo... kalian ga record omongan kalian sendiri sih... jadi in denial deh... *ups.... 






yang jelas sih... setelah berusaha,,, serahkan sama Yang Kuasa,,, jadi sekarang pasrah aja dehh.... 

Who is he??

Maybe y'all wondering.. Who is "he"?? The one that I call yellow koala or spongebob.. The one I call honey or baby or bub..




Hmmmm.. Unfortunately, I can't tell you his identity.. Sorry, mate.
But I can tell that he's the one that inspires me to do the best.. He's the one that give me strength when I feel weak. He makes me laugh when I sad. He makes me understand life,, he's the one that makes me want to pursue my wildest dream as a successful restaurateur.






I always put him on my pray. Wishing, hoping, and praying to GOD to make us together. Will it came true?? I don't know..
If yes, I will be the happiest person on earth. I'll be very grateful more than I have now..
But if it won't, I just accept it as destiny.. Although it hurts me so much.. I can do nothing.. After all,, I already face it sooo many times before, so,,, another broken heart won't break me.. It just makes me a better person.. Right???








And by the way,, it's not just one "he". Honestly,, I have to beautiful inspiration. And I love both of them.
They such an angel GOD send me when I wa soooooooo weak.. Sooooooo fall deep down at the bottom of the cliff.
Which one of them who will be with me?? Or maybe none??
Let time tell my fairytale.. I believe GOD will give me the best. Hehehehehehehehehehe..

Puncak-Bogor Trip ala Pengangguran

Rabu lalu,, 7 Desember 2011...
gw dan teman - teman sesama pengangguran akhirnya jalan - jalan juga setelah sempet ditunda seminggu karna ada yg interview.. meskipun ga semua ikut karna ada yg ujian dan ada yg masih kuliah,, it such a lot of fun.. =)


gw sendiri berangkat dari rumah jam 8 lebih dan nyampe Citos, our meeting point jam 9 lebih.
meskipun harus nunggu setengah jam karna ternyata bocah - bocah bangunnya siang dan macet tapi gw seneng - seneng aja karna ada Ladies Day,, jadi banyak barang - barang bagus yang bisa diliat.


rencana awal ke Taman Bunga dibatalkan karna udh kesiangan,,, jadi begitu menuju Puncak langsung deh makan siang... menu nya biasa banget,,, masakan Sunda, jadi ga gw foto deh karna udah biasa...
tapi setelah makan kita sempet foto - foto loh....

abis dari tempat makan yang makanan nya biasa banget (gw bisa masak yg lebih dari itu) mobil melaju naik ke Puncak Pass..
tempat selanjutnya adalah kebun teh PTPN VIII. sempet muter - muter nyari spot bagus buat foto - foto dan akhirnya dapatlah tempat yang lumayan...

foto - fotonya diambil dari digcam gw sama DSLR nya piting... tapi yg paling banyak yaaaa dari si DSLR itu... hehehehe

foto - foto nya harus udahan karna ujan... jadi kita turun buat nge-teh dehhhhhh

perjalanan turun ke Bogor macet banget.. untung ditemani dengan lagu - lagu hits nya Backstreet Boys,,
nyanyi - nyanyi deh tuh sambil cerita - cerita dan nge-victim memed... hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha



tadinya mau makan makaroni panggang tapi setelah dipikir - pikir mending dibawa pulang aja...
jadi yg di makan buat dinner itu lasagna..

tapi entah knapa gw merasa lasagna nya ga seenak yang gw bayangin...
apa karna udah kebiasaan masak ya???
but i'm grateful for our dinner that night....


the trip is over when the clock shows 9 in the evening...
jadiii pulang deh,,,
tapi kesenangan belum berakhir karna ada SLEEP OVER!!!!
daaaaannnn karna udah lama ga cerita akhirnya bangun sampe pagi dehhhh...

eiya.. ini nih makaroni panggang yang terkenal ituu..
gw udah tau bumbu - bumbu nya..
jadi next time gw mau bikin sendiri ahhhhh....

well that's it about my 2 day one night trip ke Puncak-Bogor...
see you in the next trip, mate....

Semua Tumpah Ruah Jadi Satu

Weekend ini, di radio,, gw denger lagu yg menyayat hati meskipun ga bikin gw galau karna entah knapa,, udah 2 minggu hati gw baik2 saja.


Liriknya itu,, menggugah hati dan sanubari bgt.. Apa karna yg nyanyi Richard Marx ya?? Atau karna emang gw ngerasa lagu itu enak bgt meskipun ga sesuai dengan suasana hati gw.. I don't know for sure, mate..


Yang jelas.. Lagu itu gw repeat terus di music player BB gw.. Sampe bosen gw dengerin lagu itu.. Sampe (mungkin) gw ikutan galau meskipun cuma bentar.. Hahahahahaha..
Hidup galau lah *lho???*


Well.. Harusnya sih gw ga boleh galau2an lagi.. Karna julukan gw skrg adalah dr.galau,, mengatasi kegalauan tanpa rasa galau.. Gara2 banyak org galau yg curhat ke gw.. Jadinya gtu tuh.. Meskipun lama2 bosen jg karna ceritanya muter2 aja, tapi mau gmana lagi. Namanya jg temen yg cerita. Masa iya mau gw cuekin?? Tega bgt dong..


But above it all.. I feel very grateful for what happen and for what I have.. I can't ask more than this.. ♥

to all women out there

ini share dari sepupu gw via BBM... 
hope you like it... 


Satu cerita Ketika Tuhan menciptakan wanita, Dia lembur pada hari ke- 6.

Malaikat datang dan bertanya “ Mengapa begitu lama Tuhan?”

Tuhan menjawab, “Sudahkah kamu lihat semua detil yg Aku ciptakan untuknya?” 

“Dua tangan ini harus bisa selalu dibersihkan, setidaknya terdiri dari 200 bagian yg bisa digerakkan dan berfungsi baik agar dapat mengolah berbagai jenis makanan…

Mampu memberikan kenyamanan bagi anak2nya…

Punya pelukan yang menyembuhkan rasa sakit hati dan keterpurukan…

Dan semuanya cukup dilakukan dgn kedua tangan ini… 

Malaikat takjub, “hanya dgn dua tangan ini?...”

“Tetapi Tuhan, Engkau membuatnya begitu halus dan lembut”
“Ya.. Aku membuatnya begitu lembut. Tapi kamu blm bisa bayangkan kekuatan yang Aku berikan kepadanya agar ia bisa mengatasi banyak hal yang luar biasa”

“apakah dia bisa berpikir?” tanya malaikat

Tuhan menjawab “Tidak hanya berpikir, dia juga mampu bernegosiasi dan mengutarakan pendapatnya” 

Malaikat itu menyentuh dagunya..
“Tuhan,Engkau buat ciptaan ini kelihatan lelah & rapuh, seolah banyak sekali beban untuknya” 

“Itu bukan kerapuhan, itu air mata. Aku berikan padanya supaya dia bisa mengekspresikan kegembiraan, kegalauan, cinta, kesepian, penderitaan dan rasa bangga”

“Engkau memikirkan segala sesuatunya. Wanita ciptaanMu ini sungguh menakjubkan!” 

“Ya..Harus! Wanita ini mempunyai kekuatan utk mempesona laki2…

Dia dapat mengatasi beban hidup, mampu menyimpan kebahagiaan & pendapatnya sendiri…

Mampu tersenyum bahkan ketika hatinya menjerit…

Mampu tertawa saat hatinya menangis…

Dia bisa berkorban demi orang2 yg dikasihinya…

Dia bisa melawan ketidakadilan…

Dia bersorak saat melihat kawannya bahagia…

Hatinya terluka saat melihat kesedihan…

Dia tahu sebuah ciuman&pelukan dapat menyembuhkan luka…

CINTANYA TANPA SYARAT!” 

Malaikat sangat kagum.“Lalu apa kekurangannya?”

Tuhan menjawab ”hanya satu hal.. Dia terkadang lupa betapa berharganya dia…”

because of a song

selama beberapa minggu ini... gw jadi puitis banget
jadi suka diem dan merenung,, terus pas lagu itu diputar di tv atau radio, gw berkaca - kaca...

silahkan liat sendiri liriknya.. menurut gw liriknya simple tapi menusuk hati..
ada beberapa kalimat yg "gw banget'




so here's the lyric




A Thousand Years by Christina Perri

Heart beats fastColors and promisesHow do be braveHow can I love when I'm afraidTo fallBut watching you stand aloneAll of my doubtSuddenly goes away somehow
(Pre-chorus)One step closer
(Chorus)I have died everydaywaiting for youDarling, don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more

Time stands stillBeauty in all she isI will be braveI will not let anythingTake awayWhat's standing in front of meEvery breath,Every hour has come to this

silakan kalian cari mana kalimat yg menurut kalian "gw banget" hehehehehehe 

me,, become....

me,, become an independent woman,,, i already did....
me,, become a good bestfriend,,, i already did....
me,, become a SE's degree holder,,, i already did...
me,, become a master student,,, i can imagine that.... 
me,, become a MBA's degree holder,,, i can imagine that....
me,, become a successful restaurateur,,, i can imagine that....




what i can't imagine is...




become an important person in someone's life...
honestly... 
i can't imagine how life's works when i become "the important person"




yes,, the truth is awful... 
i can imagine many things,,, i can imagine who or what i become in the future 
except one thing.... 




is that define my list in life??? 
is that define things i will do in life???
is that define me as a person???


i don't think so...
but if people want to judge me for what i choose,, then be it... 

learn to look with heart...

for the past four year of my college journey,,, i've been falling for someone for about.... three times...
yes,,, three different person with their own pluses and minuses... 
some said that i choose to like and love them because their personality,, but... wait...


when i think about it carefully.... i fell to them most of because their looks or how they treated me in the beginning we met..
i never really looked into their heart or what they really mean... 
believe it or not,,, for the past four year, i like someone just because what they look in the outside!!!!!!
what a mess... 
and i just realise that...
what a pity..... =( =( 


the other reason why my life looks like "an epic mess" is because i just accept people from the beginning...
i didn't look who they really are,,, since i don't have many friends in senior high,, 
i promised my self to accept people without knowing who they really are... i just think they all good and nice...
then... look what happen now....
i'm disappointed... my heart hurts... and i don't know if i can trust people like i used to be...




and now... since my relationship and friendship section didn't end up well.. (i'm still a single lady,, and a person whom i believe so much betrayed me...)
i start to learn something...
something that i must learn from the beginning of my journey...




now... i start to learn, to look with my heart,, not just with my eyes... 
yup... i think it's the best way to know people well,, better than i used to be...




so,, in my new book of life... in a new chapter of my life,,, i will practice that...
i will look people with my eyes and heart...
i'll be different than the old me...




i start to look with my heart...
yes... using the most fragile and most believable thing that i have... 
my own heart,,, 

what's next

these are things i want to do after graduation day : 








1. have a long vacation to Bali, Lombok, and Komodo Island
2. entering TOEFL course
3. applying for MBA degree in University of Ballarat, Australia
4. go around Aussie to learn cuisine for my restaurant (about 3 years from now.. amin)










and that's just things that comes in my head...
the rest is... I DON'T KNOW... I JUST LET IT FLOW
let the time shows me,,, let GOD guide me,,, 

fiuuhhh... finally....

alhamdulillah......

finally one of many lights i've been waiting for came...
yes,,, it's not perfect,,, but i think it's good enough for me...





really,,, it's like... one of many weight on my shoulders lifted up...
altough not all "the weight" lifted.... still,,,, i'm very grateful with this,,,,





that's what i'm trying to do....
help me, GOD....
help me through this life...
guide me..

my favorite quotes..

these are some quotes that inspire me... 









Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength, pleads no excuse of impossibility; for it thinks all things lawful for itself, and all things possible.

- Thomas A. Kempis - 






Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, the accept it and live up to it. 




- Buddha - 






We are each responsible for our own life - no other person is or even can be. 


- Oprah Winfrey - 

There is one great truth on this planet : whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it's because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It's your mission on earth. 

- Paulo Coelho - 






Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with. 


- Paulo Coelho - 

eid adh = potong kambing??

selamat idul adha semuanyaaaaaaaa....

suara sapinya kedengeran nih sampe rumah,,, padahal rumah ga deket2 banget sama masjid...
hehehehehehehehe



kambingnya sudah siap dipotong.....




sapinya juga sudah siaaaaaappppp....


sebenarnya kasian juga sih ngeliat mereka dipotong begitu,,, meskipun gw bukan animal lover
tapiiiii ngerasa sedih jugaaa,,,,


anyway,,, once again....

HAPPY EID ADH, EVERYONE..... 

when i think of you

my dearest sunshine...

today,, on my way home... 

the sunset is sooooooooooooooooo beautiful...

when i look at the blue sky that turns red,,, i remember you...

i imagine you with me, enjoying the beautiful sunset 

and you know what, honey.....

the sunset is similar with this...

so beautiful, right????

beacuse of the beautiful sunset and you in my head

i don't feel really sad and low anymore...

geez... you are,,, truly,, a medicine for my sadness..

a helping hand when i stumble...

you are truly my sunshine after the rain,, after a bad storm...