good life???

i wrote this not beacuse i'm not grateful or thankful enough...
it's about a journey to reach something....


i've been through so many bad things for the past one and a half year...
and i think it's bad or worst enough cause it change me,, change my heart...
but,,, now a bad thing comes (again..)
i'm force to face it with sooooooooooo much patient,,,
my besties said patient has no limit... if we think we reach our limit,, it will extend with or without our permission..
well,, that's what i've been trying to do...


it makes me think..
is life is really good???
or it's just a song to boost my mood??
am i not strong enough to face things happened before so i get this "shit"??


i admitt,,, for the past three days,, i've holding my tears,,,
i hide it,, i try to be strong and looks a little bit numb...
is it good or not.. i don't know,,,
i just don't want to look so childish if i cry or whining about things...

so... what have i got to do???